Truth

It's true the observation

To the right holds the tears

To the left holds the happiness

Showing testament to it
Shows the truth in its statement

Wallowing in self-consolation

Visions - Bring me the horizon

I didn't realise the true poetry of this song until now. It's amazing.

________________

This is a call to arms, so grab your guns and get your horses.
Only the dead have seen the end of this fight.
This is a call to arms, so all you fallen soldiers sing with me: death or glory.

So march with me if you believe there's any hope for us.
I've been hiding in these trenches for far too long.
All is fair in love and war, so they tell me.
All is fair in love and war, so they say.

Come on, come on, there has to be a better way.
Get up, get up, let's leave this mess.
I know a place that we can get away from all of this.
Come on come on, get up get up.

I've been dreaming of us leaving everything and everyone we've ever known.
I've been thinking all these visions must be a sign, so hold on and don't let go.
No, we can't leave till you tell me everything.
So come clean, don't talk in tongues. Talk in tongues.
It's time to bring out your dead.
And the skeletons that you've been hiding.
Tell me everything I need to know.
Bring out your dead. [2x]

So march with me if you believe there's any hope for us.
I've been hiding in these trenches for far too long.
All is fair in love and war, so they tell me.
All is fair in love and war, so they say.

Come on come on, get up get up.
I know a place that we can get away from all of this.
Yeah.

[2x]
I couldn't see a thing till I shut my eyes.
I never knew a thing till I lost my mind.
I would sell my soul to know it all, but I held the keys all this time.

[2x]
I've been dreaming of us leaving everything and everyone we've ever known.
I've been thinking all these visions must be a sign, so hold on and don't let go.

Bring out your dead. [3x]

Unending continuation #3

He stared outside into the beautiful moonlight

With no hint of artificiality in sight

Only the bliss of the atmosphere lingered in his mind

His eyes were brightly awake, finding the silence inside

We go back in time, triggers galore

We go back in time, a reminder of

We go back in time, he starts to remember

We go back in time, he wants to forget this forever

Untitled

A surge, a rush

One that previously was associated

With guilt, with regret, with pain

To bring myself, to once again

Enter that world, has confused me

Thinking once again

Placing my insecurities aside

Once again

To face it

And see the light at the end

Unending continuation #2

An exchange of knowledge happened

Which never happened before

A 180 turn around from the very beginning

Then another which leaves myself distraught

Actions unspoken, words meaningless

Enduring bouts of masochism

Before the bracing of impact,

As i'm free falling, I feel as if i'm living

Self-Conclusion - The Spill Canvas

Love this song.

___________________

Fade in, start the scene

Enter beautiful girl

But things are not what they seem

As we stand at the edge of the world

"Excuse me, sir,

But I have plans to die tonight

Oh, and you are directly in my way

And I bet you're gonna say it's not right"

My reply:

"Excuse me, miss

But do you have the slightest clue

Of exactly what you just said to me

And exactly who you're talking to?"

She said, "I don't care, you don't even know me"

I said, "I know but I'd like to change that soon, hopefully"

Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion

Of self conclusion in one simplified motion

You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it

No matter how unbearable this misery gets

"You make it sound so easy to be alive

But tell me, how am I supposed to seize this day

When everything inside me has died?"

My reply:

"Trust me, girl

I know your legs are pleading to leap

But I offer you this easy choice-

Instead of dying, living with me"

She said, "Are you crazy? You don't even know me. "

I said, "I know, but I'd like to change that soon hopefully"

Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion

Of self conclusion in one simplified motion

You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it

No matter how unbearable this misery gets

I would be lying if I said that things would never get rough

And all this cliche motivation, it could never be enough

I could stand here all night trying to convince you

But what good would that do?

My offer stands, and you must choose

"All right, you win, but I only give you one night

To prove yourself to be better than my attempt at flight

I swear to god if you hurt me I will leap

I will toss myself from these very cliffs

And you'll never see it coming"

"Settle, precious, I know what you're going through

Just ten minutes before you got here I was gonna jump too"

Yeah we all flirt with the tiniest notion

Of self conclusion in one simplified motion

You see the trick is that you're never supposed act on it

No matter how unbearable this misery gets

Unending continuation #1

From the day dot, a call was made

Negative four, under the starry night

Glanced up at the gigantic structures

Thoughts corroding my head while I close my eyes

Fast forward, a call was made

Positive unknown, under the starry night

Glanced at the exquisite scenery

Thoughts burning my head while parts of me die

Day

Exquisite places, lovely atmospheres

Dreaming one day, just one day

Surprises, improvisation

Dreaming one day, just one day

Cushion

Clasping the cushion

Falling into a shallow sleep

Trapped somewhere between awake and sleep

Insomnia while the subconscious is still awake

Schism

Immolation, masochism

Secretly we're all one

Self infliction, ensuing schism

One day shall be enough

S

The best words are excreted from my mouth

In a manner like this, in a state like this

Triumphing all over everything

Wallowing in non existent bliss

"One more nail in the coffin
One more foot in the grave
One last time i'm on my knees

As I try to walk away"

Sometimes trekking through the cold

Can never be consoled by a warm cup of tea

Developing immense hypothermia

While feeling a burning sensation inside me

Watching it all melt and decay

From the inside and the out

Telling me to stop walking

While the words cannot escape my mouth

The freezing moon diminishes my capacity to think

While the blistering heat erases any logical thought

The humidity leaving my body content

Confused always, my mind raught

"We all have our horrors and our demons to fight

But how can I win, when I'm paralyzed?

They crawl up on my bed, wrap their fingers 'round my throat

Is this what I get for the choices that I made?"

Insert the camera inside the cranium

Monitor the impulses, ensuing an aneurysm

It's haunting, entirely haunting

Petruding my soul with guilt

I'm screaming from the inside

Quiet outside

My voice yells the loudness of a thousand nails on a blackboard

Nevermind

Self conclusion, as there always needs to be an end

Mending every little cut and bruise, as I tend

To move forward and forward, while leaving no

real conclusion, as the poem keeps on flowing

and flowing, and flowing, and flowing

until the very end

ATAR

To define myself via a number
is horse excrement

Yet i'm ecstatic

Couldn't be happier

Thought Police

Thought police entering my brain

Siezing my thoughts, leaving me in a prison

So much guilt, So much guilt.

Light

Light is ever beaming through

To be delayed later and later

Prolonging the vibrant Sun

Infecting all being with its brightness

It feels infectious

Light ever gleaming from the sky

As it turns into night, it's still beaming

It's still gleaming

It's still bright

So very bright

Untitled

To capture the sheer intensity

Of the words spewing from my convulsing mouth

Would be impossible due to the incessant beating

Of an object called the heart

"Get the fuck up, keep going"

Is all it said.

"This time, this fucking time"

Is what was previously said

"Fuck it"

Is what it will say in the future

As the words tremble from my lips

The feelings are mumbled

As the teeth are grinding onto one another

Ever knowing, ever seeing

Untitled

This talk of it reeks of horrible memories

The time spent, the amount of hours

They go on and on, ever afraid to fall back

Because a repeat may happen

How can I resist the colourful environment

The lush landscape, the vibrant characters

Yet a shadow of despair casts itself over it all

Inducing a bout of nostalgia and regret

This Bitter Pill

I've been completely and utterly addicted to this song for the past day. I don't know. It speaks volumes.

This Bitter Pill - Dashboard Confessional

______________

Walking away

It's not the same as running

Is it to you now that you've run in this ground

And you say take this

This medicine is just what you deserve

Swallow, choke, and die

And this bitter pill is leaving you

With such an angry mouth

One that's void of all discretion

Such an awful tearing sound

With it's measure only equal by the power of my stare

Glaring over you and over you this feeling of despair

Is never wearing out

It's wearing off

And it's leaving you with such a heavy heart

And a head to match

The bottle is waiting

The cap is twisted begging to be used

And so are you.

And this bitter pill is leaving you

With such an angry mouth

One that's void of all discretion

Such an awful tearing sound

With it's measure only equal by the power of my stare

Glaring over you and over you this feeling of despair

Is never wearing out

Melancholy

Another old one. Sorry, i'm digging up gems all tonight.

__________

Drip by drip
The water falls from the tap
Slowly slowly
One by one

The lamp shade shakes
Rustling of the wind
Oblivious to anything around it

Rain pours from the skies
Onto my cold head
The sky is clouded
Forever grey

The street lay dead
As if nobody inhabits it
Silence roams now

Fluorescent lights
Reflect off the puddles
Portraying a picture
Distorted by rain

The cold night
Where silence roams
Street light flows
Rain Drops
Melancholy lives

Me Vs Me

Wrote this a long time ago, I was reading my collection of poems over the past few years and I struck this gem, again, not explaining, but it's a nice reminder.

___________

It's been a while
Still you're striking me subconsciously
I thought you were gone
Yet the thoughts poison my brain

Left me staring at an empty box
Just knowing i'll be pushed down to that low level again
That level where i'm not returning
That level where I turn myself to nothing.

Can't you just leave me be?
Whenever I turn a corner a thought is there
Just dangling in front of my face
You are a demon.

You found me
You took bits of me
You tore them apart
I hate you.

The day I see you
That lucky day
Even you know
That something bad will happen.

You linger in my head
You linger on this screen
You linger within this text
You linger wherever I go.

I know you're just smiling
An insult to everything
I know you're happy
While i'm not.

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A polar opposite occurs
I lay here in awe
Letting the warmth of my sheets
Drown me in happyness

I'm left smiling here
I'm left happy
I'm left wallowing in joy
I'm left being me

Every thought
Fills my heart with warmth
Even when my days
Are pitch black

The days that i'm left
Could be the darkest of them all
I'm left
Laying in cynicism

I've dug a hole
Inside my mind
I crawl up
and wither inside

You linger in my thoughts
You linger in my heart
You linger in my darkest hours
You linger in me

You make me smile
You make me laugh
But...
It turns out the same way.

Over
And
Over
Again.

This

This inability to understand

This incapacity to do a thing

This doubtfulness incessant in my head

Just like before

Just like before

Irony

Searching down the road

Making our way through the unbearable heat

It's a reminder of before, fighting the insecurities

Lies, a hint of questioning takes over the brain

Everything turns out fine, we hope. Feel no guilt please.
^
^
^
^
:)

Hope

Hope is all we bargain on

All we place our trust into

Despite explaining logically the thing around us

We begin to hope

Plead is what we do

When our hopes diminish

As they dwindle down

Hoping for more hope

Shock

Shock

My head lay on the pillow

As the music flowed through my ears

Sleeping still absorbing the impact

Wake to feel a sense of content

With everything

Remembering to breathe in

and breathe out

Scull

Scull scull scull

Calm calm calm

Ignore the horrid taste

Bask in the ambience

bask in the atmosphere

Bask in the mood

Bask in the anger

Bask in the frustration

Calm calm calm

Scull scull scull

Grinning

The soothing music entering my ears

Grinning at this beautiful mess created

The red wine slowly enflames the throat

Giving a smooth entering into the body

Eyes about to give in

Still grinning

Hoping for tomorrow

Still grinning

Break

Sipping the green liquid

Freezing as it burns

Inconsistencies blurted

Bouts of bullshit heard
Insomnia kicking in

It's difficult to sleep

Yet it's difficult to wake

Trapped in a paradox

All I need is a break

Music = poetry

Music is poetry right?

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Am, C, F, C, Cmaj7sus2
Am, C, G
Am, C, E, Am, Csus2
F, Fm, C

C, Am, F, C, G
C, Am, F, C, G

Am, C, F, C, Cmaj7sus2
Am, C, G
Am, C, E, Am, Csus2
F, Fm, C

C, Am, F, C, G
C, Am, F, C, G

Am, C, F, C, Cmaj7sus2
Am, C, G
Am, C, E, Am, Csus2
F, Fm, C

C, Am, F, C, G
C, Am, F, C, G
F, Fm

Am, C, F, C, Cmaj7sus2
Am, C, G
Am, C, E, Am, Csus2
F, Fm, C
F, Fm, C

Circle

Three circles

To get into the third one

Takes a lot of effort

Nobody is there.

Nobody.

Sense

Dozing off into the dreamland

While my eyes are still awake

"So you have to give until you have nothing left?"

A burning sensation fills the retina

As I stare into the abyss wondering

"The longer the night goes on, the more I think about stuff in general"

Such an act, pondering myself

Questioning of character, of personality

Unable to understand

Makes absolutely no sense

...

...

Helpless

Gasping and gasping

The last breath of fresh air

Waiting to enter my lungs

As my pupils dilate

My hands shake

My body frozen

Quivering at the sight

Numbness overcomes

Reaching out, yet

I can't

Blank #2

Hard to fill this space

For there's nothing to fill it with

Everything is left unsaid

Everything makes no sense

Slipping back

Just slipping

Waiting

Wondering

Worrying

Let's leave this blank

Crypt

Let's keep this as a crypt
Where nobody knows the key

To truly understand

You would have to be me

Lost

Lost all sense of day

Lost all sense of night

Reveling in ambiguity

My eyes distort reality

Completely deluded

It never clears up

Waiting for clarity

That may never come

...

Hold back

Keep calm

Do not ponder

Keep listening

Repress

Keep it in

Bounds of separation

Hold on

Just for today

Shadow

Shadow of two

One disappears

Path is clear

An obstacle to plough through

Grand Theft Autumn - Fall Out Boy

Moar lyrics.

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Where is your boy tonight? I hope he is a gentlemen.
Maybe he won't find out what I know:
You were the last good thing about this part of town.

When I wake up, I'm willing to take my chances on the hope I forget
that you hate him more than you notice I wrote this for you. (For you, so)

You need him. I could be him...
I could be an accident but I'm still trying.
That's more than I can say for him.

Where is your boy tonight? I hope he is a gentleman.
Maybe he won't find out what I know:
you were the last good thing about this part of town.

Someday I'll appreciate in value, get off my ass and call you...
but in the meantime I'll sport my
brand new fashion of waking up with pants on at four in the afternoon.

You need him. I could be him...
I Could be an accident but I'm still trying.
And That's more than I can say for him.

1-2-3-4!
Where is your boy tonight? I hope he is a gentlemen.
Maybe he won't find out what I know:
You were the last good thing about this part of town.

won't find out (he won't find out)
won't find out (he won't find out)

Where is your boy tonight? I hope he is a gentleman.
Maybe he won't find out what I know:
you were the last good thing about this part of town.

Round and Round #2

Again we enter the vicious cycle

Ever repeating itself

Until lesson learned

"Round and round in circles we go

Utter failure to see the expectations, the truth in front"

Waiting again. Now crawl, crawl back

"Complete realisation occurs, trying not to imply incessant narcisissm"

Round and round in circles we go...

Take

Take a beating

Take a punching

It'll get used to it

By now it should

''

It's cloudy and I'm drenched in grey

'Cannot be your enemy'

Despite the cold weather

The flames engulf the insides

A perfect juxtaposition

'Cannot be your memory'

Drowning in thought

Existential thought

Cynical thought

'This may never start'

Could the shadow of two embrace me

Let the ghosts be driven away

Wallowing in regret and insecurity

Frustration

Frustration building

Implosion occurring

Bullet through the brain

Excretion of the innards

Walking with a heavy heart

Embracing the cynicism

Shaking hands with pessimism

Consoling in negativity

Chance

Always the uncertainty

Always the chance

It's never set in stone

Regretful decisions, always taken back

Memory by Sugarcult

I need to post more lyrics on this blog that I appreciate.

________________

This may never start

We could fall apart

And I'd be your memory

Lost your sense of fear

Feelings insincere

Cannot be your memory

So get back, back, back to where we lasted

Just like I imagine

I could never feel this way

So get back, back, back to the disaster

My heart's beating faster

Holding on to feel the same

This may never start

I'll tear us apart

Cannot be your enemy

Losing half a year

Waiting for you here

I'd be your anything

So get back, back, back to where we lasted

Just like I imagine

I could never feel this way

So get back, back, back to the disaster

My heart's beating faster

Holding on to feel the same

This may never start

Tearing out my heart

I'd be your memory

Lost your sense of fear

Feelings disappeared

Cannot be your memory

So get back, back, back to where we lasted

Just like I imagine

I could never feel this way

So get back, back, back to the disaster

My heart's beating faster

Holding on to feel the same

This may never start

We could fall apart

And I'd be your memory

Lost your sense of fear

Feelings insincere

Cannot be your memory

Cannot be your memory

I get it.

I get it

I understand

I really get it

If that's what is risked

Because of all of that

Damn you're all fucking shallow

Keyboard warriors

Makes me angry

Extremely angry.

Calm

Calm the fuck down

We're young and we're stupid

No time for that

We have our lives to get through it

Minute details, enthrall me dearly

Obviously your vision is blurred

You cannot see clearly

My brain aches

My eyes burn

Ears popping

Here I toss and turn

End

The feeling in the back of my neck inflicts pain when I swallow

The eyes blazed red gasping for sleep reflects my sorrow

My head throbs again and again, waiting for it to end

I sniff and sniff til I try to relax and lay on my bed

Two days til freedom, and i'm feeling like this

Once it's over, my life will be pure bliss

Two

Jealousy

Fear

The two intertwine

Or are they separate from each other

Type

Placing my energy

Wanting to write

My head turns blank

Filled with shades of white

The words escape my lips

The words escape the tips

Of my fingers as I implant

My thoughts into words

I can't think

I'm blank

Mental

Build a wall

Mentally prepare

Tackle the fear

For the unknown is there

Roulette

Let's play russian roulette

As we step to the edge

Close our eyes, take a step

Allow chance to determine

Whether there's rocks at the bottom

Or cushions

Or if there's a ledge to grab onto

At the end

Sleep

Thoughts convolute my head

As it cowers into a ball

Numb while it lives inside

Paralysing my brain

Tick

Pound pound

Beat Beat

One #2

For platonically, I have fallen

The heart beating, not again

One

One had a hunch, a mere hunch

Extended through the annals of time

No, what felt like the annals of time

The visualisation becomes reality

The images presented before became true

The never ending thoughts which have corrupted ones mind

The everlasting ideas have succumb to truth

It aches and aches
Yet, one always worried

One always cared

One always seemed to be the only one who did

As one gazed upon the immense consumerism

The pavement walking on them

The mechanical object placed within ones chest

Failed.

The mechanical object shed bouts of oil

It broke

It shattered

As the gears stopped working

Helpless one stood

Helpless one felt

Helpless one put on the game face

Helpless one listened

Breathless for a moment

One walked as the pavements moved one

The road moved one

Every substance underneath ones feet moved for one

One needs to help

One needs to embrace

One needs

One fucking needs

Numb it, for other one can't comprehend

Shattered, other one cannot fathom the extent

Here's one's mechanical object

Fix it

Fix it for one

Fix it for yourself

Oh how one weeps

One weeps and weeps

Bringing one's self

Destabilised

Devalued

De-(insert adjective here)

One cares

One loves

One needs, to be okay

One wants to spare the pain

One's pain

Other's pain

Down the annals of time

One waits

Hand extended

Waiting for it to be taken

For one cannot wait
One on the verge

Of detracting

...

Queue

For this is a forewarning

Almost a foreshadowing

A multitude of words

An excess, and exacerbation

Let us wait in anticipation

A reminder #6

Dammit.

Dammit dammit dammit.

As he stares upon himself realising what he has done

Wallowing in regret and in words lost

As it is a repeat, a reminder, a trigger

A reminder #5

The more thoughts enter my cranium

The more memories that come to my head

Stuck in a paradox, in a purgatory

Not knowing where to stand

Not knowing where to go

A reminder #4

A stroke through the small orange box

The visual is still there aching at me

Contemplation of another move

Contemplation of permanent erasing

A reminder #3

I moved it back

Couldn't do it

Two perfect images placed side by side.

There's a significant difference though.

A reminder #2

Moved.

I've moved.

I've moved the reminder.

I've moved the trigger.

I've moved it all.

I'd rather it stay like before

I'd rather it that way

I'd rather it not trigger a thing

I'd rather it not be a reminder

Onwards

Take on insecurities

Take on negativity

Take on anxiousness

Take on randomness

Digging a hole inside the mind

Digging a hole in the dirt

Digging a hole

Only to push yourself deeper

Exam

Complete decimation

Destruction of two

Annihilation of today

Only more to come through

A reminder

Questions questions
Intoxicating the brain like the rum does
Reminder, more reminders.
It's a possible reason as to the question of why.
'i am the ocean, I am the sea, there is a world inside of me'
Detachment permanent
"maybe one day I'll disappear again"
Repeating constantly
"disappear"
"again"

Vegas Skies - The Cab

Sorry for posting these. Quite corny, but oh well.

_______________________

It's twelve o' clock and I need your attention

It's like the alcohol

Making my head spin

Your scent is the rum

The room is a bottle

Keeping me hopeless until I wake tomorrow

If tonight ever makes a difference

The way that I feel

The way that I'll remember it

I'll take this down until the glass remains

Swallow the words that I was meant to say

It's a long drive back to Vegas skies

So why don't I make one more wrong turn tonight

So say goodnight

Our first goodbye

I've only got forever and forever is fine

Just take your time

We'll stop the clock together and know that the timing was right

All of these guards they stand tall and defensive

Putting up walls around what was once innocent

It won't let me in, but I'm stronger than that

Because you stole my eyes and I've never looked back

Girl, last night I forgot to mention

The way that I feel, the way that I'll remember this

When we're this young

We have nothing to lose

We just the clock to beat and a hand to choose

It's a long drive back to Vegas skies

So why don't I make one more wrong turn tonight

So say goodnight

Our first goodbye

I've only got forever and forever is fine

Just take your time

We'll stop the clock together and know that the timing was right

It's a long way down

Just fall into place and you'll fall into me

We'll make it out

You'll see

So say goodnight

Our first goodbye

I've only got forever and forever is fine

Just take your time

We'll stop the clock together

So say goodnight

Our first goodbye

I've only got forever and forever is fine

Just take your time

We'll stop the clock together and know that the timing was right

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Blank Blank Blank Blank?

Blank Blank Blank

Blank Blank Blank Blank Blank Blank Blank Blank

Blank Blank Blank Blank Blank Blank Blank Blank

Blank Blank Blank.

Don't Go - Bring me the horizon

There's just a snippet of this song that I find very interesting.

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If I let you in, you'd just want out

If I tell you the truth, you'd vie for a lie

If I spilt my guts, it would make a mess we can't clean up

If you follow me, you will only get lost

If you try to get closer, we'll only lose touch

Yes you already know too much, and you're not going anywhere

War

This is war

Rip off my limb

Destroy my body

Kill everything

Mutilate the innards

Quarter them

Feed them to the dogs

Feel the inherent sarcasm

As a metaphor for a value

Ever confused

Burn

Burn burn in the fire

Burn burn through my mind

Burn burn through my body

Burn burn through my soul

Scorch everything

Melt it to the point of oblivion

Feel the flames encompass yourself

Brilliance

The brilliant satisfaction

Rings upon my ears

Once again

Truth reigns

Mind

As intriguing as it is

A plethora of thoughts

Tend to embed themselves into my head

Such an abundance my cranium cannot handle

My mind aches

As it is working overtime

Constantly the gears are grinding

The chemicals colliding

Incessantly hurting

A combination

Convolutes

Controls

Collaborates

All in my mind

Spring

It's spring

Yet there's clouds

Still rain

Still grey

From one pole to the end

It seems there's no hope in sight

The difference here is only understanding

Reverse

Staleness

It's different

Very different

It's a make-up

In place for a lack of it

Doubt it

Unable to label

Unable to describe

Wrecking the fundamentals

Wrecking the optimism

Wrecking possible human things deemed 'norm'

Shuffle

Drowsy eyed I sat at the table

Doom and gloom seen just past the glass

For it's a dull day

Such a dull day

Shuffle shuffle shuffle

Click.

This table, the symbol of community

Symbol of communal family

Body stopped for a moment

Hearing the words pump into my ear drum

Sitting in shock

Bringing back a memory

Filled with empty promises

Filled with negativity

I needed cessation

Shuffle shuffle shuffle

Click.

View

It is only the window that protrudes my view

It is the blinds that limit my view

It is the window panes that obstruct my view

It is the netting that minimalises my view

Finding it difficult to see the full picture

There are some things

There are some things

You cannot formulate into words

There are some things

That aren't meant to be heard

There are some things

That shed light upon an otherwise black World

There are some things

That reinforce the darkness murdering the light

There are some things

I cannot explain

There are some things

With the wealth of knowledge to gain

There are some things

That cause immense pain

There are some things

Burning into the heart through the pouring rain

There are some things

That eat at your soul

There are some things

That make your inner self whole

There are some things

Which reach through your innards and digs a hole

There are some things

Inside you, which you will never let go

Winner.

Less pessimism

More optimism

Declining in doubt

Heightening in dependance

It is a mere win

For our 'kind'

Perfect

Radiant Sun gleams all over

The wind brings a perfect breeze

For what is seemed as

A perfect day

Repeat

It's a repeat of before

For if this truth is told

I fear for thee

Just fear due to this repeat

The ending was not joyous, only painful.

Euphoria

It's like i've taken a euphoric substance

Streaming through my blood in glee

The pupils dilate while my heart pumps and pumps

The four muscles in my face start to move

Close my eyes and envision, just envision

The intense overwhelming feeling in me

My

My vocal chords would like

To strum out the words

'Lost cause'

My heart is steady and beating

Screaming to try, shouting the words

'No'

My brain is calm and collected

Sitting in its shell, merely whispering

'Don't even bother'

My eyes are red and tired

Sitting in the eyelid, saying

'See'

My ears are sensitive and active

Extending out of my head, saying

'Let. Just let'

My mouth is smiling

Truthfully

'It's their life'

Untitled

I do not wish impending doom

Upon any person living on Earth

Yet I make an exception,

Just for one

I will take this knife

Carve a phallus on your back

Subsequently stab it

Slit your throat

I will feel no remorse

I will feel no sympathy, nor empathy
Only Joy

Only Happiness

I hope you die very soon

I'm tired.

Filling this box with my thoughts

Utterly meaningless

I can never release these things

It's gone

End of a chapter

Just another chapter

Somewhat a forgetful one

Yet somewhat a great one

The things dragged on into the next will stay

Forever stay

Regale

Regale me, oh damn regale me

Of the triumphant occasion

Regale me, reinforcing my personal theory

Oblivious to everything

Regale me, further my cynicism

Fuel my hatred for the pupil body

I'm going to remember these memorious things

Realise that the concept of 'family' is cow manure and does not apply

Inhalation

Wrote this ages ago
__________________________



Crawl through my skin
The spiders never stop

My eyes vent with rage
Dilating immensely

Rush through my veins
I am invincible

It drives me insane
Just one more hit

I see the light
"Time of death, 3:30am"

=)

There's some morbid hope

Can't fathom as to why

Can't question either

Lost in complete confusion

Never knowing

Ever present

Do not hestitate

Overwhelmed with joy

Feeling euphoric

Just lingering

Only lingering

Leave

It's interesting

Such an observation

Forever entwined in questions

Delivering delivering

We all have come to an end of it all

While repressing the supposed good times

The fact that through the utter worst
Barely anybody was there

I stood at the top of the building of life

Gazed into the distance

Realising a change

I changed

Not actually

But to them I did

I'm never myself

Never around them anyway

Only a few

Interrupt the structure

We all crumble and fall

Unless we build a second structure

To replace the aforementioned

Nostalgia setting in
But it's just nostalgia

Utter nostalgia

Held together by jokes

Held together by your substance

While lacking real substance

Remove school from this equation

There is nothing

Let me leave already

There are people better worth my time

Us

So,

One with problems stemming from the bare roots

Another with the same

One that trekked through the darkest of days

Two that bare fruit, yet never let anybody in

One who questions the World

Another that tries to reconnect with one of their roots

We all ask why.

Confiding

Determined for answers

Yet there's always light.

Always light.

B5

Playing the B5

Subverting any popular music

Heaviness, deepness

Delving into a World full of darkness

Full of the devils chords

Full of the dimished

The dark side.

Start

Grinning. Just grinning.

It's a start that I needed to have

It's a start that I hope continues for a long time

It's just a good start

Untitled

There's a certain extent to which what I say can affect someone

There's a limit to everything

But, let us not wallow in regret

Let us not writhe in self-pity

Make it, but we're standing behind

Just ready to catch

Round and round

Round and round in circles we go

Utter failure to see the expectations, the truth in front

Caressing, is all that is ever felt throughout this

While giving a warm embrace and a cushion to fall onto

Selective selective damn being selective, hearing the inane excuse

The typical excuse, sugarcoat, instead of placing it bluntly down my ear canals

I'm tired, so damn tired, giving, giving, giving, giving, receiving only intrinsically

My head was distorted, my mind was spinning, my brain was burning

Complete realisation occurs, trying not to imply incessant narcisissm

While vehemently arguing my personal perspective as I tore the object off my sleeve

It finally stays inside myself, repairing just repairing, for once in my life

Now that it has subsided, and as of the events only experienced beforehand

Round and round in circles we go

When the mind has snapped out of that mentality, it'll be late, too late

For now, round and round in circles we go

Lights

I've been writing random poetry on my iPod touch. Todays was during my train ride back home, I was just in that 'mood'

____

Lights lights.

One by one they veer in through the window

Laughing morbidly

They serve as a reminder

"Let's not make that mistake again"

For it's embedded in my brain

Never to

Learning learning

From these lights

Living living

I smile once again

With no mask behind

Open your eyes - Snow Patrol

I love these lyrics so much.

All this feels strange and untrue

And I won't waste a minute without you

My bones ache, my skin feels cold

And I'm getting so tired and so old

The anger swells in my guts

And I won't feel these slices and cuts

I want so much to open your eyes

'Cause I need you to look into mine

Tell me that you'll open your eyes [x4]

Get up, get out, get away from these liars

'Cause they don't get your soul or your fire

Take my hand, knot your fingers through mine

And we'll walk from this dark room for the last time

Every minute from this minute now

We can do what we like anywhere

I want so much to open your eyes

'Cause I need you to look into mine

Tell me that you'll open your eyes [x8]

All this feels strange and untrue

And I won't waste a minute without you

Spring

Oh spring

How you have greeted me

With a warm gentle breeze

Oh spring

I've walked into you

Finally

Oh spring

After months of winter

I vowed never to turn back

Oh spring

I'm glad you're here

Welcoming me with open arms

Oh spring

A change of seasons

Literally, and metaphorically

Oh spring

Void

Let the words flow into my brain

Write whatever I like

Warp the structure

Distort the mind

Blankness fill the empty void

Happiness fill another
Sadness fill another

All in all, my brain is filled

Contorting, morphing words

Mould to my liking

Smile elegantly

As I click the designated button

Life

Confide in it

Learn a lesson

Just maybe, maybe

Live it

Embrace it

Love it

Whatever it is.

Side

I enjoyed the Sun on my face

Twirling winds blow heavily around

Smiling as I embrace the day

A glimmer of hope twinkles

Leaving the Earth it's bound to

Lighting the sky with its embrace

Levels are non-existent

Overlooking the ground below

Orange sky vibrant as always

Killing time as I stare into the distance

I revel in euphoria

Never to escape from this bliss

Going to sleep with content

Utopia awaits in my head

Peripherals widen as I awaken

:

)

Head

Pulsating pulsating pulsating

My head throbs in pain

Doesn't help staring at this screen

Writing what comes to my head

My eyes a daze

Everything a mess

Close my eyes

I lay to rest

Faces

Game face on

Walk outside

Face the World

Burning inside

Beating

Was reserved for a reason, the reason isn't there anymore

____

Beating beating beating

That's what my heart is

Placing my hand to my chest

I feel a beat

Slowly slowly beating

I take my hand off

I feel nothing

But an emptiness where

My heart once was

I feel it still beating

Yet there's nothing there

Nothing is beating

Masks

This mask I wear

I wear it so well

This mask I wear

Nobody can ever tell

This mask I wear

It's set on so tight

This mask I wear

It shields me from the light

This mask I wear

Nobody can see my tears

This mask I wear

Nobody can know my fears

This mask I wear

I can empathise

This mask I wear

I can synthesise

This mask I wear

Is on top of another mask

This mask I wear

Removing it is a murderous task

This mask I wear

Isn't one, it's multiple layers deep

This mask I wear

Shouldn't be something you should seek

Now

You all mean the World

That you must know

You all mean everything

That you must know

You are my second family

That you must know

Never will I take you all for granted

That you must know

I love you dearly

That you must know

Untitled

Unresolved issues

Complicated consequences

The words are just useless

The numbing ensues

The headache starts

The pain is too true

Kill the loneliness

Embrace the atmosphere

I walk down the street silently

Mask

I wear this mask for six hours a day

I wear this mask for five days a week

I wear this mask for twelve months

Tomorrow I take it off

Dot.

Ignore the aesthetics

Create meaning out of nothing

Create nothing out of everything

Motion Picture Soundtrack - Radiohead

More lyrics I am in complete awe of.

Red wine and sleeping pills

Help me get back to your arms

Cheap sex and sad films

Help me get back where I belong

I think you're crazy, maybe

I think you're crazy, maybe

Stop sending letters

Letters always get burned

Its not like the movies

They fed us on little white lies

I think you're crazy, maybe

I think you're crazy, maybe

I will see you in the next life

Oblivious

All so oblivious

I watch you smile and laugh

Watch you all enjoy each others company

Watch all of you act like there isn't a care

in the World

It makes me die inside.

Today

I'm tired I'm tired

I'm tired of this mask

Distract me distract me

It's all I ever ask

Six hours of torture
I had to endure

Repressing repressing

Composing myself, not so sure

The sight of a text

Burned my eyes in italics

For I was numb

So numb

Heart

I gathered composure as I stared

Burying my face into the papers I held

The sky was gloomy

A mirror of as it was this very time before

Nothing but a memory I would love to cast ashore

My heart sank walking through the busy street

Gulping my drink bit by bit

Playing songs that remind me. Just remind me

I needed to gain composure, badly

I hopped in his car, smiling gladly

Back on track

Corner of my eye

Walking through
Lifted

I smiled.

Re:

Re-analyse

Re-think

Re-do

Re-peat?

Three

For the fucking truth is

I miss you

For the fucking truth is

I ask why you leave

I ask why you leave all the time

It's a question that i've never got an answer for

It's a question that I want to be answered

As soon as possible

______________

I need you bro

So fucking much

You don't have any idea

I'm going to hold on until lunch

It's going to be my biggest mission

For I had nobody but you 30 hours a week

7 day a week

For the last 12 months

____________

I'm worrying about you

Through this drunken state

I'm hoping all is well

And you don't do something stupid

Life is hard like this

Smile

Conclusion reached

While satisfaction is mildly accomplished

Drowsy as I write

Eyes burning slowly

For it's all done

I hope

No longer filled

Any detail of torment

Realisation has occurred

Epiphany reached

I am smiling

Only smiling

Untitled

Words are meaningless

Words are useless

Words are what we used to construct meaning

Words are an escape and an excuse to how we feel

Show not tell

Words are a limitation

The ability to use words

Succinctly

Concisely

Such brilliance is a skill

Yet it limits us.

We're restricted.

Restricted by the confines of language

Never to be broken

Sanctuary

My escape

My sanctuary

Not a place found in books

You can't read about it

You can't 'be there'

You can't just 'go there'

Within the confines of my mind

My escape is there

My sanctuary is there

It makes me feel

It keeps me sane

Makes me feel real

Lost in a trance

Always.

When escaping, I lose control

I escape reality

We have our place.

Once you find it

Embrace it

Cherish it

Let it not be a physical one

But one where you can access

At any time of day

At the tick of a trigger

Live in it

Love it.

Backspace

Wrote this ages ago

The amount of times
We press backspace
Imagine the words that slip away

How many 'I love you''s
Would we all have missed

How many 'I need you''s
Would have drifted by

Those last words to a friend
Would never be heard

That last desperate attempt
Would have been flawed

Think.

How would your life be
If all we could do was press enter
Never erasing your words
All out for the person to read

If I didn't have a
Would we
Would you
Where would
What
Rig
N

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Subjectivity

Subjectivity

Signified

Signifier

Drawing components
Drawing relationships

Drawing pictures

Painting memories

Heavily induced into nostalgia

Hence, this is never explained

Subjectivity

Signified

Signifier

Untitled

Ignoring the convictions

Surpassing the doubt

Burning the idiocy

Regardless of the amount

Destroy the views

Kill the lights

Move forward

Regardless of what's right

It's set in stone

One ear out the other

Otherwise

It's broken

Heavy cynicism

Little to no narcissism

Plethora of pessimism

Reject the voice that's in your within

Stage

Bright lights

Shine upon the stage

I stare at the crowd

Thousands of glaring eyes

Looking at me

I play.

Definition

Every facet of it

Under every definition

Screaming screaming screaming

Pervading tradition

None can accurately describe

What the eyes can see

They're blurred with a haze

Speechless at the heart, only to dream

Every hour turns

Into one minute

For every minute

Alive within it

Seven passes

Six lives

Five smiles

Four tension builds

Three closing

Two close to end

One reminiscing

For there's something to mend

Boy who blocked his own shot

I'll just be posting lyrics from some artists which I think... Are just genius, sublime and poetically beautiful.

The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot - Brand New

If it makes you less sad
I will die by your hand
I hope you find out what you want
I already know what I am
And if it makes you less sad
We'll start talking again
And you can tell me how vile
I already know that I am

I'll grow old
And start acting my age
I'll be a brand new day
In a life that you hate
A crown of gold
A heart that's harder than stone
And it hurts a whole lot
But it's missed when it's gone

Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad you that can forgive
Only hoping as time goes
You can forget

If it makes you less sad
I'll move out of the state
You can keep to yourself
I'll keep out of your way
And if it makes you less sad
I'll take your pictures all down
Every picture you paint
I will paint myself out
It's as cold as a tomb
And it's dark in your room
When I sneak to your bed
To pour salt in your wounds
So call it quits
Or get a grip
Say you wanted a solution
You just wanted to be missed

Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive
I'm only hoping as time goes
You can forget
So you can forget
You can forget

You are calm and reposed
Let your beauty unfold
Pale white like the skin
Stretched over your bones
Spring keeps you ever close
You are second hand smoke
You are so fragile and thin
Standing trial for your sins
Holding onto yourself the best you can
You are the smell before the rain
You are the blood in my veins

Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive
I'm only hoping as time goes
You can forget

Promise

For I will try with all my breadth

my heart

my body

my soul

I will keep this.

Mountains will move

Seas will part

Skies will turn black

Trekking right through

Through fire

Through brimstone

Through lava

Through volcanoes

Through eruption

Through the coldness of winter

Through the blizzards

Through glaciers

Through iceburgs

Through the lightning

Through the thunder

Through the storm

Through the end of the World
Through hell

Through heaven

Through purgatory

I will keep it.

Promise.

I promise I promise.

I promise I promise I'll keep it.

Word

Meaning of a word

Captures ones soul

That's it.

Just it.

It is what it is.

I cannot explain it.

It just is.

Inspiration

Old one.

We leave the shadows of our past behind
In turn to grow and nourish our inner selves
The shadows haunt us wherever we go
But that is a part of life

Letting go of what you used to be
Embracing what you have become

Develop from the days
Harmonious for the hours
Miraculous for the minutes
Smile for the seconds

Move forward
Not behind
Because the World
Won't wait for you

Life

Smile because you deserve to

Breathe because it's a necessity

Laugh because it's the best medicine

Cry to let it all out

Hurt because it's proof you're human

Live because it's the only thing you can do.

Seasons

Summer

I walk through the street, Sun in my face

Feeling the cool breeze fill my lungs with euphoria

Grass pushing upwards against my feet

Gravity trying to pull me down, while I always pull myself upwards

Autumn

I walk through the street, clouds in my face

Feeling the cool breeze fill my lungs with happiness

Dying grass pushing upwards against my feet

The trees are turning a shade of brown, slowly.

Gravity trying to pull me down, while I struggle to pull myself upwards

Winter

I walk through the street, bleak sky raining down

Feeling the cold cold air, fill my lungs with metaphorical liquid nitrogen

Dead, cold grass pushing upwards against my body

The trees are dead.

Gravity has almost won, while I crawl, and crawl

I crawl until I can crawl no more

To die in winter, to shrivel in the cold

Winter

I'm still crawling through the cold grass

I can almost see it

Almost.

Just almost.

Spring

...

...

...

...

Ponder

Learning, learning

Each day

We think and think

Each day

It's a constant process

Dumping the innards of our heads

Filling it with new lessons

New ideas

Utter simplicity

So intricate so beautiful

No longer devoid of appreciation

We smile

We smile to our view of Heaven

We smile to our view of Hell

We smile to our view of Earth

We smile to what we've learnt

For this could be nihilistic

So existentialistic

Philosophers cannot fathom

Such logic for a complex subject

We revel in our sorrows

Revel in our joys

Forever wondering

Why we are so devoid

For I shall sleep tonight

In my warm bed

Pondering pondering pondering

Until I give into my head

Awake

Wrote this ages ago.

Dim light fades through my eyes
Immobile I stay

Blinds block my view of sight
Scaring the night away

Imamate objects gazing at nothing
Intense breathing ensues

Heartbeat racing
Indescribable feuds
Welding within myself

The embers of emotion
Pry through my veins

As I lay awake in bed
All thoughts astray.

Breathe

Breathe in

Breathe out

Inhale

Exhale

Inwards

Outwards

Oxygen flowing

Through my veins

Sight fading

Sight regaining

Fall into sleep

Fall out of slight

Remnants of the night before

Remnants of the morning after

It still... Does

Hollowing out my innards

Open for all to see

People stop and stare

Envelope everything, lock it tight

You seal it with your mouth

Overlap it with your tongue

Underneath it all, concealed forever

Are we satisfied with the contents

Reading them for one last time before
Everything is thrown in the fire

Heavily sedated with thoughts

After the gasoline of epiphany

Pours on the sealed envelope

Purposely setting it alight with

Yesterdays thoughts, moving into tomorrow

Free

Pour it out

Leave it be

Burning eyes

Tears to dry

Learn

and learn again

For such is life

Wander around the concrete

Thoughts captured within my head

Struggling to face upwards

I walked over

Sat down

Started thinking

My mind shrivels

Back into its hole

Sitting on this chair

I don't even need to care

Street Lights.

This one, I wrote... Ages ago.

Street Lights

Walk past
Every street light
It's all the same
One by one
One by one
Emitting the same glow
Extruding the same light
Programmed with the same watts
Just boring.

Stride down the street
as the cold air fills your lungs
Aware of the clones of street lights
Again
and again

Come across a broken light
Gaze in curiousity
That's about it, just keep walking.

Spend all your time trying to find a unique light.
One on its own.
It can be found in its glow.
Its light
Its watts
Its shape
Its size
It could just be the way the moonlight reflects off the bulb
Or how this light is moved in a different way.

Then again...
Sometimes you think you've found a unique light that catches your eye
But it ends up being exactly like all the others.
Just the same.
Just the same.

Over and over again.
This cycle continues.
Until morning...
You can really see
What the lights for what they were.
What they really were.
What they are.
But nobody cares.
Nobody looks.
Nobody pays attention.
Just because a light glows at night
Doesn't mean that's all it's good for.

Take for granted this light.
Before.
It.
Just.
Fades off.
Into.
The.
Morning.
Morning.
Never.
Never.
To.
Be.
Noticed.
Again.
Again.
Again.
Again.
Again.
Again.
Again.