Two

Jealousy

Fear

The two intertwine

Or are they separate from each other

Type

Placing my energy

Wanting to write

My head turns blank

Filled with shades of white

The words escape my lips

The words escape the tips

Of my fingers as I implant

My thoughts into words

I can't think

I'm blank

Mental

Build a wall

Mentally prepare

Tackle the fear

For the unknown is there

Roulette

Let's play russian roulette

As we step to the edge

Close our eyes, take a step

Allow chance to determine

Whether there's rocks at the bottom

Or cushions

Or if there's a ledge to grab onto

At the end

Sleep

Thoughts convolute my head

As it cowers into a ball

Numb while it lives inside

Paralysing my brain

Tick

Pound pound

Beat Beat

One #2

For platonically, I have fallen

The heart beating, not again

One

One had a hunch, a mere hunch

Extended through the annals of time

No, what felt like the annals of time

The visualisation becomes reality

The images presented before became true

The never ending thoughts which have corrupted ones mind

The everlasting ideas have succumb to truth

It aches and aches
Yet, one always worried

One always cared

One always seemed to be the only one who did

As one gazed upon the immense consumerism

The pavement walking on them

The mechanical object placed within ones chest

Failed.

The mechanical object shed bouts of oil

It broke

It shattered

As the gears stopped working

Helpless one stood

Helpless one felt

Helpless one put on the game face

Helpless one listened

Breathless for a moment

One walked as the pavements moved one

The road moved one

Every substance underneath ones feet moved for one

One needs to help

One needs to embrace

One needs

One fucking needs

Numb it, for other one can't comprehend

Shattered, other one cannot fathom the extent

Here's one's mechanical object

Fix it

Fix it for one

Fix it for yourself

Oh how one weeps

One weeps and weeps

Bringing one's self

Destabilised

Devalued

De-(insert adjective here)

One cares

One loves

One needs, to be okay

One wants to spare the pain

One's pain

Other's pain

Down the annals of time

One waits

Hand extended

Waiting for it to be taken

For one cannot wait
One on the verge

Of detracting

...

Queue

For this is a forewarning

Almost a foreshadowing

A multitude of words

An excess, and exacerbation

Let us wait in anticipation

A reminder #6

Dammit.

Dammit dammit dammit.

As he stares upon himself realising what he has done

Wallowing in regret and in words lost

As it is a repeat, a reminder, a trigger

A reminder #5

The more thoughts enter my cranium

The more memories that come to my head

Stuck in a paradox, in a purgatory

Not knowing where to stand

Not knowing where to go

A reminder #4

A stroke through the small orange box

The visual is still there aching at me

Contemplation of another move

Contemplation of permanent erasing

A reminder #3

I moved it back

Couldn't do it

Two perfect images placed side by side.

There's a significant difference though.

A reminder #2

Moved.

I've moved.

I've moved the reminder.

I've moved the trigger.

I've moved it all.

I'd rather it stay like before

I'd rather it that way

I'd rather it not trigger a thing

I'd rather it not be a reminder

Onwards

Take on insecurities

Take on negativity

Take on anxiousness

Take on randomness

Digging a hole inside the mind

Digging a hole in the dirt

Digging a hole

Only to push yourself deeper

Exam

Complete decimation

Destruction of two

Annihilation of today

Only more to come through

A reminder

Questions questions
Intoxicating the brain like the rum does
Reminder, more reminders.
It's a possible reason as to the question of why.
'i am the ocean, I am the sea, there is a world inside of me'
Detachment permanent
"maybe one day I'll disappear again"
Repeating constantly
"disappear"
"again"

Vegas Skies - The Cab

Sorry for posting these. Quite corny, but oh well.

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It's twelve o' clock and I need your attention

It's like the alcohol

Making my head spin

Your scent is the rum

The room is a bottle

Keeping me hopeless until I wake tomorrow

If tonight ever makes a difference

The way that I feel

The way that I'll remember it

I'll take this down until the glass remains

Swallow the words that I was meant to say

It's a long drive back to Vegas skies

So why don't I make one more wrong turn tonight

So say goodnight

Our first goodbye

I've only got forever and forever is fine

Just take your time

We'll stop the clock together and know that the timing was right

All of these guards they stand tall and defensive

Putting up walls around what was once innocent

It won't let me in, but I'm stronger than that

Because you stole my eyes and I've never looked back

Girl, last night I forgot to mention

The way that I feel, the way that I'll remember this

When we're this young

We have nothing to lose

We just the clock to beat and a hand to choose

It's a long drive back to Vegas skies

So why don't I make one more wrong turn tonight

So say goodnight

Our first goodbye

I've only got forever and forever is fine

Just take your time

We'll stop the clock together and know that the timing was right

It's a long way down

Just fall into place and you'll fall into me

We'll make it out

You'll see

So say goodnight

Our first goodbye

I've only got forever and forever is fine

Just take your time

We'll stop the clock together

So say goodnight

Our first goodbye

I've only got forever and forever is fine

Just take your time

We'll stop the clock together and know that the timing was right

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Don't Go - Bring me the horizon

There's just a snippet of this song that I find very interesting.

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If I let you in, you'd just want out

If I tell you the truth, you'd vie for a lie

If I spilt my guts, it would make a mess we can't clean up

If you follow me, you will only get lost

If you try to get closer, we'll only lose touch

Yes you already know too much, and you're not going anywhere

War

This is war

Rip off my limb

Destroy my body

Kill everything

Mutilate the innards

Quarter them

Feed them to the dogs

Feel the inherent sarcasm

As a metaphor for a value

Ever confused

Burn

Burn burn in the fire

Burn burn through my mind

Burn burn through my body

Burn burn through my soul

Scorch everything

Melt it to the point of oblivion

Feel the flames encompass yourself

Brilliance

The brilliant satisfaction

Rings upon my ears

Once again

Truth reigns

Mind

As intriguing as it is

A plethora of thoughts

Tend to embed themselves into my head

Such an abundance my cranium cannot handle

My mind aches

As it is working overtime

Constantly the gears are grinding

The chemicals colliding

Incessantly hurting

A combination

Convolutes

Controls

Collaborates

All in my mind

Spring

It's spring

Yet there's clouds

Still rain

Still grey

From one pole to the end

It seems there's no hope in sight

The difference here is only understanding

Reverse

Staleness

It's different

Very different

It's a make-up

In place for a lack of it

Doubt it

Unable to label

Unable to describe

Wrecking the fundamentals

Wrecking the optimism

Wrecking possible human things deemed 'norm'

Shuffle

Drowsy eyed I sat at the table

Doom and gloom seen just past the glass

For it's a dull day

Such a dull day

Shuffle shuffle shuffle

Click.

This table, the symbol of community

Symbol of communal family

Body stopped for a moment

Hearing the words pump into my ear drum

Sitting in shock

Bringing back a memory

Filled with empty promises

Filled with negativity

I needed cessation

Shuffle shuffle shuffle

Click.

View

It is only the window that protrudes my view

It is the blinds that limit my view

It is the window panes that obstruct my view

It is the netting that minimalises my view

Finding it difficult to see the full picture

There are some things

There are some things

You cannot formulate into words

There are some things

That aren't meant to be heard

There are some things

That shed light upon an otherwise black World

There are some things

That reinforce the darkness murdering the light

There are some things

I cannot explain

There are some things

With the wealth of knowledge to gain

There are some things

That cause immense pain

There are some things

Burning into the heart through the pouring rain

There are some things

That eat at your soul

There are some things

That make your inner self whole

There are some things

Which reach through your innards and digs a hole

There are some things

Inside you, which you will never let go